Tuesday, October 2, 2007

am waiting..

is it just me or is everyone confused all the time.. i mean everyday everytime i sit down to think what should i do, i think about possibly everything else in the universe except what i sat down to think about.. weird it may be but it is so starkingly obvious to me that sometimes, its really terrifying.. may be am not the only one in this herd.. or may be i am.. whatever it may be, the confusion, the chaos just lingers on.. chaos people say is good, and i agree, but then to always live in constant chaos is too much.. the mind doesnt think what it is supposed to think.. or is there anything that the mind is "supposed" to think??
a lot of people have asked me whether am i ever sure of anything? somehow the sense that anything other than the obvious can happen, however less the chance of tht happening be, creates that suspicion in my mind.. and may be this suspicion has led to be highly critical of anything that i do or think.. i mean for me anyone saying that he is sure of something makes me uncomfortable, and i still wonder why? it may be as obvious as "the sun will come up again tommorrow" but for me the fact that whether this is true or not will be known tommorrow morning itself, so how can someone be so sure of sit today is a big big confusion..

people call me weird... i guess i have given u sufficient reason why... :)

as for the subject, am still waiting..