happy diwali

happy diwali folks..

happy diwali

happy diwali folks! :)

another random mumbling..

i know my day counting is going horribly weird bt thn who cares? having all kinds of experieces now a days, n cant say they are my better ones.. started reading Fountainhead and weirdly, am trying to interpret it too.. i dont know why i am writing this blog now, since apparently neither am i pissed, nor happy.. but its just one of those times when you feel like running away because you know something is wrong,and weirdly you just cant pinpoint what is wrong? its one of those times when everything seems to hit rock bottom, and you just dont know where to run to.. or more importantly where to hide.. or do i have to hide? am all confused.. but again, is it something new? NO.. not with me atleast.. somehow everything is hazy in my mind... and i cant relate to anything... i cant find my peace of mind.. and this is just adding to all the confusion and chaos! for once i dont know what should i do to make this all right.. and i dont even know if i can make all this right? and more importantly i dont even know if all this canbe made right?? i want to get numb again.. i think the feeling i am trying to resit from a long long time is my only survival trick.. somehow its not good to be unnatural.. n being numb comes naturally to me..think should become numb again.. "then to hell with this world and all its people.. for i have become ... comfortably numb!"

again i have stuff to do and i dont want to.. dont know when will the time come that i do something i want to do.. but lets leave that topic away for a second..had some interesting classes today.. marketing was fun..(it always is unless your group is being cold called! :P ) learnt about fundoo stuff like pepsi succeding to make some inroads in market only when coke screws up.. for an ardent pepsi fan, this isnt the best thing to hear (though i dont know why.. i mean pepsi not having large market share wont change it for me.. but i guess thats what is called brand loyalty ;) ) also we learnt about some other ways to look at probs, some which if not told would never come in my mind.. :P
after that we had our IGP class which was about negotiations.. one of the rare classes where i did not agree with the stuff taught, though it wasnt wrong as such.. i mean the instructor taught us to be open and have faith in our counterpart while going for negotiations, which was focussing more on the moral aspect of negotiation.. again i wasnt sure how correct it would be because then in that case, you are opening up yourself for attack because the info that you give out might contain information which would be your constraint and your counterpart may use it against you.. again the moral thing is out there but till the time you are getting some info because of some stupidity of your counterpart and no fraud from your side, i think one should use that during negotiation..controversial, you take your call... :)


btw am still waiting..

you know your life has changed when..

• your mobile phone has become a mere alarm clock
• you go to sleep 4 in the morn and get up at 4 in the evening.. and undergo 8 hours of gruelling classes and quizzes in between those times..
• a maggi is all u can have if you r feeling hungry anytime after 9!
• you blog wen you should study.. and you blog not because you want to blog but just to run away from studies
• group studies is considered more important than individual studies , though individual performance is much much more important than group performance..
• after writing a blog you change all "u"s to "you"s and so on to get your "yanko!" english out of the system and get back to good old victorian one..

is it my life or me that has changed?? i wonder....

am waiting..

is it just me or is everyone confused all the time.. i mean everyday everytime i sit down to think what should i do, i think about possibly everything else in the universe except what i sat down to think about.. weird it may be but it is so starkingly obvious to me that sometimes, its really terrifying.. may be am not the only one in this herd.. or may be i am.. whatever it may be, the confusion, the chaos just lingers on.. chaos people say is good, and i agree, but then to always live in constant chaos is too much.. the mind doesnt think what it is supposed to think.. or is there anything that the mind is "supposed" to think??
a lot of people have asked me whether am i ever sure of anything? somehow the sense that anything other than the obvious can happen, however less the chance of tht happening be, creates that suspicion in my mind.. and may be this suspicion has led to be highly critical of anything that i do or think.. i mean for me anyone saying that he is sure of something makes me uncomfortable, and i still wonder why? it may be as obvious as "the sun will come up again tommorrow" but for me the fact that whether this is true or not will be known tommorrow morning itself, so how can someone be so sure of sit today is a big big confusion..

people call me weird... i guess i have given u sufficient reason why... :)

as for the subject, am still waiting..

am i posting?

seriously cant imagine me posting today but i am.. ohhk lets keep this one short too? hows the new template? fine as of now.. by the time am writing my next blog, i dont know.. yeah thats me.. btw i hve examz from monday.. please please pray for me junta!!